Sunday, December 29, 2013

Broken Pieces


Sometimes my life feels so shattered, like I'm not whole enough to do what I am purposed to do. It's a vicious cycle of falling and getting back up again. I'm so glad I am a child of God, because there were plenty of times that I did not want to get back up. But my faith keeps telling me that there is something greater out there for me. I believe this and I believe my God will prove my faith right.



Broken Pieces

 

Pressure busts pipes

Boy did they hit that saying on the head

I just exploded not too long ago myself

Every last bit of my sanity just fell

To the floor

Disguised in the shape of tear drops

It even had the wet feeling that they produce

A puddle formed out of a broken me

Pieces so shattered you wouldn’t even believe

Wasn’t even sure if I could rebuild my castle

Because before my breakdown, I was a queen

I was never torn in between

A stuck, failure slash indecisive human being

Procrastinating on cleaning up my own mess

Wasn’t sure if it’s even worth it

It felt like I intentionally lost my purpose

As a matter of fact I didn’t even know what it was

I thought maybe if I evaluate my pieces

Pick them up one by one

Dust them off, shine them up

I can get back who I once was

But it was like a thousand pieces fell out of that box

It would take days to put me back together

Where would I even start

Is my heart even ready to take that charge

Or was it broken along with the rest of me

Why was the devil always testing me

Because this was definitely his work

He prides himself in seeing me fail

A train that’s derailed

 A prisoner with no bail

A path with a maze for a trail

I guess he forgot who guides me

Who lifts my spirits over the clouds

Who wipes me off and stands me back on my feet

Sometimes God himself has to remind me

Because he is always there to help me regroup my pieces

To reshape, realign and apply new meaning

To every part of me

You see he reaches straight to the heart of me

And always succeeds in lighting back up that spark in me

I don’t know how many times it’s been extinguished

I can’t even count

All I know is I appreciate every time he drug me out

Kicking and screaming because I couldn’t see the future in me

All I saw was the past

It just kept haunting me, taunting me and flaunting all of my mistakes

It kind of made me hate, myself

That was the breaking point

That’s when I fell

That’s when my teardrop pieces revealed themselves

That dark hour was when my faith kicked in

When my God reached down

Picked up my broken pieces

And made me whole again

 

 

 

 

 
Nakesha Graves
 

 

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Life




Life throws you curve balls more often than not. So much goes on that it's hard to stay focused and keep on track.  A lot of times you can feel incomplete like something is missing, but you just can't put your finger on it. Everybody is trying to make their own strides so they don't have time to push you to do better. Life is a funny thing, and living in it is no fun. Just a thought.


Life

 

Life

It’s a funny thing

To go from rags to riches

Dealing with hoes and snitches

Trying to figure out what’s missing

But won’t nobody listen

To nothing you gotta say

Your dreams just fade away

Like a cloud that disappears

Because the sun don’t like to share

People living in fear

Baby mama’s shedding tears

Incarceration happens

Before they even get the facts in

Only one person complains

So it all just goes away

Poverty starts to increase

Crack heads fill up the streets

Still fighting for my speech

Constantly on my knees

Tears begin to stream

My soul begins to bleed

Because life

It’s a funny thing

Trying to figure out what’s missing

But won’t nobody listen

 

 

 

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Break Free



It's amazing how much we don't believe in ourselves. And how scared we are to fail. Always looking for approval. What other people think plays such a big part in so many of our lives. But should their opinions really matter? I say no. As long as you are doing what you love to do then seek only God's approval.



Break Free

 

It’s been so many years

For me to work up my nerves

To spit out my words

For the people to hear

Because I was too scared

To let my thoughts run free

Thinking everybody

Was going to judge me

For being me

But now my confidence flows strong

Because it’s been locked up so long

Trying to figure out what’s been wrong

Why was my brain so gone

Into a false perception

Of the wrong direction

Not allowing me to manifest and

Lose out on my blessings

But now I hope the world is ready

Because my hand is now steady

My heart is no longer heavy

And my voice is just begging me

To stand in front of the crowd

So it can blare out loud

A new distinct sound

No longer to be bound

Let everyone see

Then manifestations of God and me

No longer a mystery

We’ll go ahead and put this in history