Destiny

Commitment is scary. Not everybody is ready to commit, but they still want to be involved in actions that lead to that very word. Thinking that they are invincible, and then realizing that they are not. Running away from commitment happens on a daily, but you have to understand that you are not the only one being affected when you run.

Destiny

 

I took one step

Didn’t even notice the oncoming traffic

Didn’t think I’d be hit with the fact that I was pregnant

And he, he was my kryptonite

Who knew his green glow could pull so much out of me

It pulled out my standards, my principles, my quality of life

Every encounter stripped me slowly until I gave in

I submitted to the manipulation

All of my insecurities revealed

And he wrapped them in his blanket

Stroked them so gently and made me believe he was their savior

He would deliver them from me

And I would be able to stand tall without looking back

When all along he was just inching his way into position

Confident steps of persistence

And soft strokes of his hand broke down my barriers

Said he would stand guard and relieve me of my defenses

I was putty in his hands

He molded me, he shaped me, he created me

His very own masterpiece

I was flawless in his eyes

Until that day

Who knew a positive would cause a disaster

A responsibility appears and his kryptonite flees

No longer wanting to be connected with me

I was now a burden, a weight on his back, cement in his shoes

Threatening to keep him grounded

A ball and chain equipped with scissors ready to clip his wings

And now he wants to throw in how the strings were never really attached

Retracting all that we had

Erasing memories from the past

And detouring onto a new path without me, without us

Who knew that something that took two to create

Could be blamed on one

Yes my legs were open but you also had to cum

So there was a happy medium

You just didn’t like the end game

And it’s taking so much for me to refrain

From what I really want to say

But I will and can do it without you

You breached my foundation but I will rebuild

Level by level, brick by brick, reinforced with steel

Protecting the two things you decided to give up

Because you are scared of commitment

And resentment is just not in me

I forgive you and will guard what you implanted in me with my life

In the end you will be the one paying the true price

Not talking money

Talking love, first words, first steps, endless hugs

And you will regret ever leaving the family you helped create

I hope it was worth the pain you inflicted

And the code you encrypted on my heart

Did take some time to crack

But I was able to dig deep and guide it out through my veins

Through my sweat through my tears

I overcame the pressure I was engulfed in

That you made me soak in

And I never thought I would be dry

But I’m dehydrated, you evaporated out of my system

Don’t even remember what I was missing

And now I have a new reason for living

And her name is

Aniyah Destiny Brown