Again

Mistakes are a part of life. There is no way around them, but I do feel they make you a better person. If you never fail how will you know what winning feels like. Sometimes you have to make the same mistake over and over until you can finally correct it. And even though you do, who is to say you will never do it again.

Again

 

Here I go again

Am I back at the same twisted situation again

I was supposed to learn from my mistakes again

But it seems I keep walking through the devil’s revolving door of sin

So here I am dropping to my knees again

Because I keep repeating the same things over and over again

Thinking to myself when will it be my time to win

When will it be my time to shine

Like the sun brightens up the sky

When it will it brighten up my life

That’s been dulled by heartache again

That’s been dulled by stressing again

That’s been dulled by being stomped down in the dirt that I’m gonna be buried in again

When will I erase this hate that’s been over taking my soul

I feel like I’m losing control of my flesh

And my spirit can’t seem to catch it

To try to talk some sense into it

To tell it to stop what it’s doing again

To tell it please don’t ruin it for us again

Making me have to pursue him for us again

But I’m only human

And I can never be satisfied

Not in even my wildest dreams

Even the biggest stars claim crack as their king

Instead of claiming G O D

J E S U S

The more I stray away

The more I’m gonna have to confess

On how I cheated again

And how I mistreated them again

And how I put the knife to my wrist saying I’m leaving here again

But yet I’m still here

Still breathing this polluted air

Still drinking this polluted water

Still hustling for dollars but the only thing that fills my pockets are quarters

So now I’m back to selling that dope again

And back to riding that pole again

And now I’m back to looking at the heavens because my faith reappeared and gave me hope again

I guess it’s time I put more focus in

To me, and not to what his homeboy said

To me, and not to what his baby mama said

To me, and not to what my heart said

Because it was my heart that got me in trouble again

It was my heart that made me say I love you again

It was my heart that wanted so much of his attention that he walked out of my life again

And now I’m back at this same twisted situation again

Trying to learn from my mistakes again

But it seems I keep walking through the devil’s revolving door of sin

Spinning me around like the wheel of fortune

More like the wheel of misfortune

Cause now my house is back in foreclosure again

And my car is about to be repo’d again

And I don’t understand why I had to pawn my jewelry again.

And I can’t even cry because my tear ducts are dried up

Can’t eat because my insides are all twisted and knotted

Panty liners on every day because I can’t stop spotting

Because I’m stressing again

Trying to make something manifest again

Reaching out for a blessing again

Pressing against this same old twisted situation again.