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Side Effects

Side Effects

 

I think I overdosed on what I thought you would be

You provided a remedy to all of my symptoms

Laughter to combat my frowns

Love to ease my heartache

And a touch that would cure any wound

I was sure you were the perfect medication

You put forth so much dedication

That I didn’t even contemplate the side effects

Or what would come after I became resistant to your love

No more refills needed

No more taking you by mouth

I wasn’t expecting to be dizzy just at the thought of you

Nauseous from the smell of you

And anxious whenever I heard your name

Why do you now cause me headaches, insomnia and weight gain

You were supposed to help me regain my view on life

Instead I focus on combatting the way you make me feel

Stripped away all of my previous symptoms

Just to allocate to me the ones from your pill

But I swallowed you for way too long

Ignored the pain to prove the strong in me

The thought to leave you behind

Couldn’t have come any sooner

The truth hurts

I no longer require your so called super powers

No need to shower myself with your relief

Especially when your side effects

Tend to get the best of me

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This Thing

April is National Poetry Month. The Challenge is 30 poems in 30 days.
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This Thing

 

I don’t want to give up on this thing called love

Isn’t that the easy way out

Just another way of saying you’re too lazy to try

Too caught up in your feelings to realize

A good thing shouldn’t be taken for granted

A tainted decision to walk away

Before noticing that the pros outweigh the cons

The wounds will heal with time

The dull can regain its shine

If you dust it off and add some polish

And if I were to be honest

Being in love to me

Is equal to a raging war on a battle field

Your emotions become a loose cannon

Shooting jealous stares

Detonating bombs of insecurity

Slicing and stabbing the slightest sign of neglect

Were we not built to withstand

To endure the pressures of being in love

To walk this path that so many fail

I say we keep trying

Because I don’t want to give up

Do you

Hard To Come By

Hard To Come By

 

Happiness nowadays is hard to come by

A needle in a haystack

Maybe if you walk slow enough

You might just step on it

And then reflect on it

So you can feel the sensation again

Why do we have to resort to a memory

To make a smile reappear

Shouldn’t happiness be often

And not a random shade of blue

Why can’t every day shine bright like the sun

Or glow like the moon

It seems that the clouds and rain are taking a stand

Reaching their way into souls

Stolen contraband

Because we don’t give them away that easy

But once they’re gone

It doesn’t take much to notice

The bed seems more comfortable

And the tears overflow

Like waterfalls without a bottomless pit

Why do we risk countless days

Just to get a taste of happiness

When it can only last

For so long

Letter To Dad

Letter to Dad

 

So Dad

Where do I start

How about with I underestimated you

I just knew the day you left

Would be the last time I saw you

It took some time to get used to

An empty home because your presence filled it to completion

But when you deleted your love

It took your 6 year old baby girl through withdrawals

Anxious at every turn of the door knob

Hoping to see your face

Secretly wishing I was in a dream that I couldn’t wake up from

Tried not to showcase my feelings even though my heart was numb

You weren’t there to monitor the deterioration in its beating

It finally stopped because the thoughts of your last words

Kept repeating in my head

Curled up in my bed

Wondering why you would leave me behind

It took years to find out that it wasn’t intentional

The bottle was detrimental in keeping us apart

Filling your body with false satisfaction

And your heart following through with the wrong actions

Most men would have folded and threw in their cards

You decided to charge your way back into our lives

Worked hard to redirect all of your wrongs into the right direction

And even though you relapsed back to neglection

You still came back

Buried your pride and dismantled your ego

Took steps to regrow the love

That almost withered up and died

Watered it as much as needed to bring it back to life

I know I called you out more than an umpire

But you were still able to provide what was needed to help rewire my heart

Started to put back the pieces your absence charred off

Turned it into an at all costs endeavor

Proved that with time anything can get better

Hard not to remember the pain

Noting that it helped to build the woman you see before you today

I appreciate your effort

Glad I could be one of the reasons you didn’t give up

Willing to push through the negative stares for us

You lost your way just like we all do

No need to sit around and point the blame at you

I’d much rather congratulate your perseverance

And the fact that you made an attempt to be a better parent

Which is more than what I can say for some people in this world

Who toss their baby girls to the side never to return

You may not know this 

But you have applied new meaning to my life

Showed me the true value of the saying try until you can’t try

So I

Say Thank You dad

For trying and not giving up

For enduring when I know you are only so tough

For sacrificing the bottle for us

For that you have forever earned my love

Sincerely

Your Baby Girl

 

 

Rollercoaster

Rollercoaster

 

I finally bought my ticket

Ready to stand in this never ending line

So I can sit beside you for this two minute ride

That equates to a lifetime of ups and downs

Turns and twists

Screams and laughs

Topped off with a little bit of nausea

You can’t predict which turn will have me holding onto you for dear life

Before I decide to throw both hands in the sky

Just to get a taste of the thrill

Only to return it back to the place it truly belongs

You have to be able to face the twists that come along with the straights

Be willing to pull the kinks out of my knots

Because once we get on this ride

There is no turning back

We just have to fasten our seatbelts

And hope that our hearts are secure enough to hold them in place

I know there will be plenty of times

That we just want to unbuckle and jump ship

As if we already had a parachute as a backup plan

Resisting posting our failures on Instagram

We will suit back up

Fight and make up will be our new motto

Because it’s not worth throwing away all of our good clothes over one stain

When there are so many combinations

That can remove impurities, strengthen insecurities

And rejuvenate color

When I bought this ticket

I knew I wanted to get my money’s worth

Experience the joy and the hurt

Because if all of my emotions weren’t touched

It wouldn’t be enough to sustain me

You see I don’t believe in perfect

There never seems to be a straight path

But I am willing to take what we have

Stand in this line

And ride this rollercoaster ride

We call life

Beside of you

I will squeeze your hand and let it go

Laugh until I cry

Be disappointed in you and disappointed in me

I will love you every day even when it hurts

I will be excited with our ups

And stubborn in our downs

We will fly and crash

Go through so many turns that we’ll lose our way

But I can guarantee you

We will end up right back where we started

Buying that ticket

Standing in line

And riding that two minute ride

That equates to a lifetime

Of what we call us

Not Without Sin

I believe this piece explains itself. A lot of people who are "so called" religious, tend to judge people more harshly, when they actually need to be reviewing their own actions. if they were to take a look in the mirror sometimes, they might see their own faults.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UeFD886ft1A

Not Without Sin

 

You pick and choose your scriptures

Line them up and divvy them out to the unsuspecting

Justified in your mind because you know the word

But obviously it doesn’t pertain to you

Seems like all you do is thumb through

Turning a blind eye to the truth

Spilling out all of the judgmental in you

Oh and it is way more than I could’ve imagined

The Christian in you seems to be dragging, behind

Have you even looked back at it

Maybe you should pick it up and dust it off

No maybe you need to vacuum it off

Get all up in the creases

Cause the good that used to be there is obviously depleted

Saved but with a sinner’s mind

Front row in church but the last one in at night

And yes, you think you are holier than thou

Turning up your nose in God’s precious house

Because I don’t dress the part

But God says come as you are

Just because you wear a big hat to prove your praise

I’m bobbing and weaving to counteract your lame act

Falling out just for attention

When you really need to be giving repentance

Trying to reveal the sins of everyone else

While you should be standing in the same line getting oil for yourself

Probably scared you’re gonna fry at the altar

Oh and I believe it

I see the fumes seeping from your ear lobes

One false move and that mask you wear will melt

And what’s underneath has a one way ticket to hell

No stops, no water breaks

You better drink up now

Because the image you portray is not gonna save you

What’s behind closed doors holds your true label

Hypocrite,

Criticizing me for my sins

When your night time remedy is a bottle of gin

And I swear

You swear more than him, and her, and him and them

And all the fingers you pointing

Need to be redirected back at yourself

How long has your bible been sitting on that shelf

But of course you do no wrong

You speak in tongues, converse with God on a daily

Your hands never get dirty

You’re perfect in his eyes

Please you’re living in an illusion

And I have not for one second been fooled

When you shouting so hard you shaking the whole pew

I hate to break it down to you

But I’m not the only one who is under his review

He’s watching us every second, every minute, every hour

And you continue to make a mockery of him

So much effort in pretending you don’t even pay your tithes

I aint seen your ten percent but you all up in mines

I guess you will continue to rely on your deception

In church for every service and still don’t get the message

But brag about your blessings

And your counterfeit testimonies

Too bad I can’t hold you up to the light

And prove you are an imitation

But all in all you are one of God’s creations

And in no way, shape or form am I the perfect Christian

But I’m not the one out here picking and choosing my scriptures

 

You Would Like

There are so many people out there that don't want to see others succeed. Whether it is in a relationship, or friendship gone bad, or somebody who says they truly care for you. When someone isn't happy in their life a lot of times they don't want to see you happy either. The best thing to do is keep going. They can either join you or you can leave them behind.

You Would Like

 

You would like to see me fail

But yet I still persevere

You would like to see me crumble

But I’m already on the next flight of stairs

You would want me to give up

But I don’t know how to surrender

You would like if I lost my mind

But there aint nothing about you I remember

You would hope I didn’t feel like living

But strength has taken away my depression

You would like to see me drown on memories of you

But now God is my only obsession

You would like me to waste my thoughts on the past

But my focus is on my future

You would want me to hide my pretty smile

But that’s just not what I’m used to

You would like for me to not see through the cloud

But my vision is set on clear

You would hope my eyes would be flooded out

But I already dried out all the tears

You would like for me to sit and mope around

But I already did that when I was with you

You would like for me to remember your sound

But all my thoughts of you are mute

You would like me to stay single

But my options I can’t even count

You would like me to listen to you

But I don’t even know what, what you like is all about

 

Destiny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jbfc4FOMOVc&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Victory

Maturing is something that takes many mistakes. You have to get tired of falling before you decide to stand firm. I fought hard to not get on the straight and arrow until I couldn't fight anymore. So glad that God did not give up on me. He won the fight, the best loss I could ever face.

 

Victory 

Oh I put up a fight

I mean I put forth every ounce of effort I had

Trying to defeat him

I exhausted all of my energy just to run away

Scared, no stupid because I didn’t even know what I was running from

My blind eyes were focused on all the wrong things

I couldn’t even recognize right

If right was in my face

So I woke up every day determined not to get caught

At least not willingly

I dodged his arrows of faith

Bullets of belief

And bombs of sacrifice on a daily

Wasn’t gonna let his book of words tame me

I was caged, just not in his world

And if I really am his daughter

I betrayed him just like Judas

So foolish of me to run in the opposite direction

Chasing after affection and approval

Removing myself from his graces

Running on my last ounce of mercies

Yet he still pursued me

Like the last apple that fell from the tree

Bruised on all sides he treated me delicately

Washed me, polished me

Gave me the strength to believe

But why

I did the best I could to distance me

Hiding behind masks of too proud

And years of whatever

I never imagined this shift

He sifted through all of my flaws

To find the true beauty in me

The diamond in the rough

And he extracted it slowly

Showed me that there was so much more to my life

A way to turn my wrongs right

And at my lowest point why not try

It can’t be that bad

He wouldn’t have put forth the time or effort if I wasn’t worth it

He so confirmed it

The day he turned my dull to shine

Opened up these nonbelieving eyes

Told me to trust him

I never envisioned that God would win

But this victory I owe to him